True life: I am a habitual worrier.
As much as I attempt to capture and check every thought, many become a part of the whirling sea of guilt and defeat that moves about in my head. I find myself taking these thoughts to the extreme and dwelling in that place as if that’s where I belong, mainly because of my own choices that I wish I had handled differently. But, I recently read something that arrested the worry. It was as if God jumped right in my face like umm..do you not know I have the power? Have I not shown you that even with your mess, my record is good? Like really…who am I to give a thought so much of my energy that it consumes the brain space I could be using to craft new ideas or penning words to inspire generations? I suspect God may have taken my obsessive worrying as an insult. BUT (because God is the Master of conjunct solutions, or in other words, moving mountains on our behalf), He cared enough to use that one sentence I stumbled across as I perused an online article to remind me of Who I say I trust.
Trusting means there’s no room for worry. Because to worry diminishes power. And God isn’t about to let me (or you) get punked by a thought! God is so much bigger, and the sooner we stop boxing Him in, the sooner we can see how gracious He truly is. In no way am I implying that an extension of grace gives us permission to purposely make careless choices. But, asking for help in all of life’s circumstances seems slightly less burdensome when the One you’re approaching doesn’t expect perfection and is still willing to give you an overabundance of grace and mercy. There aren’t enough words to express the significance of that very fact! It’s major! I don’t think there are enough hours in a day to ponder on that goodness. And for that reason alone, my worry is weakened.